Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Losing my mind

Ok, I called him today. God help me, just seeing him driving by made me feel better for a while. I guess he didn't realize that it took so long to get a divorce in Virginia. He probably already had a girlfriend, before he even left, so where does that leave me? I feel completely worthless and that no one would want me. My beliefs will not allow me to see someone else until the divorce is final, if even then. I feel like I'll never get over this worthless feeling, like no one will ever want me again. All he seems to be worried about is the house & money. In case you cannot tell by these very depressing post - it's been a really bad week! Make that a bad month!


Number One Novels said...

Wow! It sounds like you're going through a rough patch. Here's the great thing, though: I don't even know you, and I know it's going to get better for you. I don't even need to meet you to know that you're going to meet a lot of great people after this guy, and they're all going to see the wonderful qualities in you. They're going to appreciate you (not money, not a house). This definitely seems like a bottoming out funk, but that means that it can only get better, right?

I bet I sound like a cheerful ass to you right now, but I've been where you're at (emotionally), and it will and does get better. Remember to do something, even small things, that make you happy every day. Dancing, singing, a coffee out, reading a good book, watching a funny movie.

I hope things look up for you soon.

Anonymous said...

I hope that you are doing well.